In Your Orbit – #loveletterseries | eps.4

It’s been a while since the last time I talked a lot about you. I do talk about you all the time but not in this particular situation. Not like this. Not this descriptive. Not this detail precisely. I will talk about you more now because just now it came to me. I saw you moving your pen with your beautiful fingers and I continued staring at your face, watching the way your lips move irregularly while you copy all those precious thoughts in your mind to a piece of paper.

Have I ever told you probably I fell in love the first time around with your confidence?

With how you’re being so sure about your body language and the way you talk. How you’re being so neat with the way you say things and rolling your eyes every now and then.

Sometimes in my life, I think about how one soul needs a pair of its insecurity and that’s probably what one searches for. It’s probably what one hopes to find or nothing at all. But then in other times, I come to a realization that that one insecure soul is rather mine. The fact is apparently, that soul of mine fell in love with the confidence in you. When I think about the time I know I love you and all of your beings, I then remember how I saw the confidence sparks through yourself. How that one particular thing might be the key you got to my heart. Who knows. We often needed time to realize the arrow cupid’s shot had got into us anyway.

This is a glimpse of my morning routine that today, happened to be a really nostalgic moment by seeing you in all that beauty. I hope you always know that there are millions of things about you I could come to a story about. And it’s not because I plan it to, the feeling came to me, I embraced it with one of our favorite things, words.

I hate it that you jinxed this by telling me about the love letter you asked last night when you saw me typing. But this writing is inspired by you, it’s all about you and absolutely for you. So here you go, baby. A love letter you asked for. I wasn’t gonna give you one, but you give yourself one by getting me falling in love again. I love you always.

Like Never Before - #loveletterseries | eps.2

Will you believe me when I say with you I’m thinking a lot about the future? It’s true, I’m enjoying my present life more, but also can’t help all the hope I got for you and me, for us. There’s something in you that pushes me to always believe that this gonna last long. I’m still thinking about many other things and many other souls every now and then, but then your name will always come up to the surface as the winner.

Will you believe me when I say with you I feel like I got everything I ever asked for? It’s true, I’m always complaining. You might want to give up if you face me every day with all this judgemental mouth. I comment on everything like I’m the only one that’s right. I complain about almost everything I experience. I have a little too much superhero vibe to think that everything that not in place should be fixed.

I’m annoying and careless. I do what I want most of the time without even thinking, but also at the same time thinking too much, about other humans, about other anything. I don’t know how to explain it clearly, but most of the time I also find it hard to even understand my own-self. One thing I know, I have a strong solitude and hardly people notice I need to break them apart when I fall in love.

You know it’s like I want to divide my life into two parts; life before you and life after you came. If it’s possible in any other way to leave behind all the scars and the wounds and the broken expectations and the overthinking and the worries, I want you now and as long as God would let me.

You’re gonna find a hard time dealing with my unstable emotion, oversensitive unclear mellowness, randomness over the head, and my trouble never-ending sleepless head. You’re gonna find me searching for you in the middle of your busiest time and demanding your presence when you’re asleep.

I lost words to describe how much I miss you since the first time that lips of ours meet. Please always remember that you got a place in this messy head and damaged heart. Know that I think of you every time, I miss you. I miss you, so much.